The Result Is....

OUT. Yup our result is finally out after a frantic + nerve-wrecking + making people wanna burn AAD wait. But I am not really happy, not coz of the result is bad (oh ya, I passed, in not so flying colours in case you are wondering). I mean I expected the result to be not that good, coz I didn't really study well, in fact I expected worse. So resultwise, I am pretty satisfied. The thing that managed dampen the celebration is some of my classmates didn't make it through and had to go for retake, which IMU did not provide enough time to study for it. It makes me pretty worried and of course, will pray that I will have most of my classmates back for sem 4.

Lets pray for them together k?

EMO

I don't know y, this song just struck me like something struck... Have been pretty emotional these few days...

郭静：下一个天亮

用起伏的背影
挡住哭泣的心
有些故事
不必说给 每个人听
许多眼睛
看的太浅 太近
错过我没被看见 那个自己

用简单的言语
解开超载的心
有些情绪 是该说给 懂的人听
你的热泪 比我激动怜惜
我发誓要更努力 更有勇气

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化 你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂

等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发 和飘著雨还是眺望的眼光

用简单的言语 解开超载的心
有些情绪
是该说给 懂的人听
你的热泪 比我激动怜惜
我发誓要更努力 更有勇气

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化 你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂
等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘著雨还是眺望的眼光

时间可以磨去我的棱角
有些坚持却永远磨不掉
请容许我 小小的骄傲因为有你这样的依靠

等下一个天亮去 上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化 你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂

等下一个天亮把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发 和飘著雨还是眺望的眼光

And don't know y I feel like saying this, I mean...critism and negative comments are ok, but I just feel SRC member or not, we are all human being, and not a single human out there is perfect...

I don't even know what I am typing!! hmm.....

Transparency

Look closely at the 3 photos above, they are all Tasmanian devil!! Except the fact that the first one is a baby devil.Compared to the second grown up one, its cuter, smaller mouth(less saliva flying around!!), and erm...without the trademark running cyclone.. Haha,but all the looney tunes aside, have you seen a real Tasmanian Devil before? Well you are looking at one now, roaring, mouth wide open, in the third pic...No prize for guessing what its saying coz we all know its screaming "help!! we are facing extinction!!" Which is true, as in Australia, this rare species is slowly vanishing from the land, and really, such a waste....

Yes yes,I know, we should stop talking bout saving animals...Lets talk bout something more serious, hmm...transparency. Thats the first thing that came to my mind actually when I reached Penang. Never gonna deny I am an avid opposition supporters ( not sending a come-and -get me sign to you , SA, I am not talking anything bout the Altantunya case so u CANT put me in jail). Especially in my own state Penang, I mean, this is where I am borned and I LOVE this island. And I definitely knew whats good for us Penangites. I will tell u what we don't need:

1) Crazily rapid development

2) Super tall buildings like KL twin tower

3) Tree chopped down, polluted air

4) Heritages torn down

5) Ignorant, self-centered government

6) Beaches famous for its rubbish

7) Scary flood

8) Traffic jams everywhere in this tiny island

9) Super hot weather!!

10) and most importantly, people telling us what to do!!

Those are some reasons, that we need a more understanding government who is not desperate to turn Penang into a KL-like city. What we truely want is to have a peaceful life, eat well, sleep well, and of course, a good environment to live in. And we need transparency!! We want to know whats the government is doing to our state, and despite the lack of support in terms of fund from central government now due to the opposition win, Penang, trust me, is indeed moving in the correct direction.... and I am happy to see it.

More politics.... How many times have u seen "full A1 students fail to get PSD scholarship" in newspaper nowadays? For me, countless.... Again what we need here is...TRANSPARENCY. I remember I am one of the so-called victim bout 3 years ago before I fought my way in due to some not to be publicized circumstances and I know how those people feel. For someone richer, worse in results, worse in co-curicullum, same race as you(yes racial is not an issue here) to be preferred for the scholarship is indeed ahead of you is...puzzling. Well I thought this scholarship is for the needy and the deserving. Well, not really the case here... Worse case scenario, you ask for explanation and the only thing the can tell you is those people are "cream in the crop" and you are not!! Cream in the crop huh, are you kidding me?? All we need is people to set up a system on selecting scholars and publicize it, is it that hard to do? Well unless someone is not willing to do it for SOME reason...(you know who and why) And there is a moment when you thought some politician, maybe someone like Dr. Wee Ka Siong from MCA can rescue you...well I am not used to launch personal attacks on people, but this guy, the ignorant way he talk to students (yes I did talk to him before), the way he look you in the eyes just does not give you security you needed... ( SO different with what you read bout him in newspaper huh? I guess sometimes media can do wonders)

So transparency again is pretty lacking nowadays, but back to SRC, I will be pretty transparent with what I do.. Althought might be a bit boring to read, but this blog will be some sort of my diary in SRC... Currently working on 3 projects:

a) Buddy system for M206/DT108/ M108

You might notice one week ago I pasted the list on boards in atrium's stage, but since the system is voluntary, problems arise when seniors decide to put their friends as "volunteer" without their knowledge, causing someone to pull out at the end and the list, need to be rearranged, so still working on creating a new list. An ice-breaker sort of high tea for those 3 batches is another headache as timetables just didnt match, plus I am not in KL, problems with booking venues, hmm...need to sort things out soon

b) Current SRC and new committee dinner

Its some sort of farewell dinner, me n PR liaison Nicholas Yeap is in charge on where should we have our dinner, any idea??

c) Visit to adopted home

Rumah Ozhanum is IMU's adopted home and the new and old committee is suppose to pay it a visit some time in the next month, and the social concerns rep is supposed to arrange it... Still working on it, hopefully will find a date where everyone can make it

And its official,I will be back in KL on 1st June(yes thats insanely early!!) I bought the air ticket yesterday just to realize the next day that the table tennis competition I am supposed to play in on June 2nd is shifted to July. Well can't do much, sacrificing my holidays to maybe try to settle some of the task in SRC, so you might find me in the office most of the time :P

Will human ever be as transparent as a glass?? Hmm..Guess not....

Miracles

It had been a roller coaster ride... After some really nerve-wrecking exam, travelling home, getting some well deserved rest and sleep, some really nice food(which I haven't had for ages!), and here I am, refreshed and rejuvenated, ready to blog again. And I will start by sending some condolences to people in China suffering from the earthquake.In conjunction of the Wesak Day today, I will pray for them and hopefully, good things will happen soon.

What they need now is some miracle, and nowadays, its hard not to look up to God for it. In fact, my entire life, its all about MIRACLE. Just take the recent End of Semester exam as an example, whoever who get through this exam unhurt, and still be able to produce great results, I must salute them, because I personally really really struggled against it. With two weeks left before the exam, I was there without even a single bit of knowledge on all 4 subjects I am about to take(no kidding!!). And when I finally planned my last minute study, I find myself reading something totally impossible to understand, giving me a feeling of a Standard one kid reading Form one book, and I don't need people to tell me I am not a genius!! And as expected, the plan fell flat, I struggle to concentrate in the first week (signs of rustiness for not studying since long long ago), managed to muster few pages into my mind per day, only to forget everything the next day!! I said to myself"great, now you are doomed"

So one week is over, I am left with merely one more week to salvage something, but still, despite all the pressure, I am not panicking. Somehow some mental strength is built in some part of my life. Then I start to tell myself, stop worrying about the exam, stop worrying about not enough time, focus on every single paragraph, every single sentence, every single word, by reading every page, you are slowly earning your points in exam!! Never ever give up until the last minute!! Motivation is high, concentration is getting better, but still a high mountain to climb, and with exam coming the next day, my knowledge is still, very very limited...

Only pharmacy students will understand what am I writing in this paragraph...

Day one of exam, physical pharmacy.....

supposed to be the easiest subject and yet it turned out to be the hardest one, but knowledge from the earlier class test just got me through,barely....

Day two, Pharmacology......

nightmare for every students, and you will never believe your eyes when you read this, I took a big gamble, I skipped Autacoids, Eiconasoids, and CNS which is 40 percent of the subject, didn't study, absolutely no knowledge bout them whatsoever, and never attended any of the lecture!! Instead I focus all my time on one chapter, hopefully, it came out in the essay so that I can vomit everything on the paper, if not, I am doomed. And thank God the gamble paid off and the question was spot on!!

And in happen the same for the next two papers, biopharmacy and microbiology, which I managed to read bout 75 percent, which no knowledge at all in the others. But I fought through this exam with resilience, every point counts and eventually, at the end I feel one or 2 points could determine if I passed, which we will know in two weeks time, I brought my books back just in case, but... keep your fingers crossed, we will see if retake is next on the line.

So that, I believe is a miracle..... miracle made me survive from a plane crash, from almost drowned in a pool, from SPM where I only studied in the last 4 weeks, from an electric shock when I was 4 and from this time...It just kept happening!! Some people might wonder why miracles only happen to certain people but I believe, miracles happen when we worked for it. If you just sit down and pray everyday, miracle WILL NEVER fall from the sky... Everytime after exam I will tell myself that I will work harder next sem, no last minute study but... again and again I had to claw my way back from the cliff, so...not gonna promise anything to myself this time, we will see what happen next semester, of course, IF there is one....

So since today is a day of Buddha, would like to send a message to Osama bin Laden:

" Dear friend, I might not be a Muslim, but I believe in the existence of God. You might argue that your God is the true God and mine, is fake. But there is one thing I know, no one can prove which God exist and which don't. The only thing that everyone agrees though is God is always good, always wanting the best for human and would never ever want us to be hurt. God, would never want us to kill using His name... And in contrst your hand is full of blood of innocent people, and you say you are fighting a holy war, in God's name?? That is the most ridiculous thing I ever heard in life. And if that's the true meaning of God, I would rather be a non-believer. Its unlikely you will read this but if you do, stop what you are doing... Coz if God is there, He is watching..."

Well, we will know soon if Miracle will again happen......

Happiness

So this will REALLY REALLY be the final post before my exam, and this is a post which has nothing to do with exam or SRC or any other stressful stuff coz I officially had enough of them and my life need some happy elements. Hmm speaking bout being happy, why not talk about random stuff that makes me happy:




A nice breakfast. MY nice breakfast is simple, waking up early in the morning and have someone fixing a breakfast for me.(do i sound like some lazy pig?) Seriously, it can be anything, I will eat it even if its a rotten egg, coz someone actually make an effort to get me a breakfast to start off my day in a high note. My ideal breakfast, hmm... a toast, sausage and scrambled eggs, pancake, coffee..something like that, but I am pretty contented in fixing my own cornflakes with fresh milk at the moment. And oh ya, green apple, not red ones will be great as well... but soon, very soon, will be able to go dimsum and tea with parents every morning at home, definitely something I look forward to...:)


Talking to people.Especially old people. I know its strange but I used to communicate better with my friend's parents rather than the friend him/herself, but in front of my own relatives, I am just a pretty quiet person, weird huh? But seeing old people smiling is a good thing, I don't mind people bore me with their past experience, just miss my grandpa!! Though I know you are somewhere watching and guarding me. I used to have this dream of helping old people cross the road, carrying them back home when they are lost (hmm sounds like some lame moral lessons, but its TRUE!!)


Green things. As in not the slimy, yucky green, but environmental green. I like to hike, I like to visit parks ( especially jogging in park opposite IMU, playground outside my house) and even my new laptop is green!! (though my favourite colour is blue) Green bugs don't work for me though, bugs in whatever colour don't work for me!! I can wake up early to watch sunset , or watch the stars at night, just that doing that by lying on the grass make me target of bugs!! Animals are different, I like animals but the only reason I don't have any pet now is coz i feel myself will be a terrible owner and I don't want any animal to die coz of my clumsiness:(


and last but not least...



Cute Stuff. I don't know if there is a rule saying that guys can't like cute stuff, but if you give me a room, and ask me to decorate it, it will probably have erm... a human sized teddy bear(erm...at least half my size), a mashimaro, erm...baby looney tunes (haha.. seriously i know someone is laughing on the other side)

Hey I am not out of my mind... When you feel down and sad, looking at something cute does at least bring a smile on your face, thats why I used to give cute soft toys as birthday present.And cute stuff, of course, include cute people :P ( yes I might be talking bout you, erhem...)

Hey I am suddenly filled with happiness, that usually happens too after I blog, so I guess BLOGGING is another thing that makes me happy... Thats all, I guess I have just written facts that people never know bout me, hmmm.... see ya after my exam

Exams!!

(First ever blog that has nothing to do with SRC, and in case you are wondering...hmm nevermind just read)

Just can't resist the urge to break away from my study and talk about something that is in everyone's mind now, "EXAM". Its a dreaded word for some people, at least maybe for people like me, but some people just plainly look forward to nail it, which is never me.

First I just wanna say that no matter what you think, the fact is I am on the brink of failing my exam and only some last minute determined hardwork and probably some luck will save me. I admit that I screwed up this semester, all the busy activities, lecture skipping and going out too often took its toll on me and if I am in deep water now, its me who put myself into it. HOWEVER, in case you are feeling sorry for me you shouldn't coz there is a HOWEVER here. HOWEVER, I am writing this without any regret and still, with a smile on my face coz looking back I had lots of wonderful memories this sem and simply because, I am still enjoying every single second of my life as if nothing has happened.

I keep getting this sentence from all my friends throughout the week, " you are JPA scholar la, you are so clever la, you won't fail your exam one la, don't lie la I know you already finish studying" ,in a joking way of course. But the truth is, I have never been a clever person, I am a normal student as everyone and I work my way up for everything so the statements erhem... is not very true and I don't really make any effort to explain myself coz it will never work. I am REALLY REALLY surprised to see how exam can really change a person, I mean 360 degrees change, even for a really close friend, might just appear to be a total stranger to you during exam period, I just couldn't recognize who YOU are anymore... and the reasons I kept quiet when people discuss bout exam stuff during meals:

1) I have no idea what are they talking bout (sounds like some alien language to me)
2) Study plus food = bad digestion ( i have gastric problems)
3) When the food is in front of u, y not enjoy it? ( well i certainly focused on my food without knowing whats happening around me, making me look like an outcast)


Maybe my perception bout exam is different, I can take exam chillingly without caring bout the score or whatever, just by making sure I understand whatever I am studying. But the truth is, for the first time in my life I DON't understand whatever I am studying and that's quite disturbing. SO still clawing my way to the PASS. But I take exam as a really small part of my life, I always feel there is MORE TO LIFE than just studying for exam and trying to score, so, its a matter of how you view things I guess... I am not saying other people's thinking are wrong, just that I like my life the way it is, simple and enjoyable. Little little things make me happy, maybe just coz someone smiled at me, maybe seing people being happy is enough to make me happy for at least a few days. I get EMO pretty easy too for small things, just for few minutes, I guess I am a pretty emotional person after all :P

Just want you to know this blog is not aimed to take a swipe at someone, its not written sarcastically, not containing any hidden meaning, just writing out whatever is in my mind now... SO with a sincere heart, I wish all my friends happy studying for the next maybe 2 or 3 days, and don't, I really mean this, DON't be be stressed up coz no matter what happen you can only try your best and any worrying, sleepless nights won't make any difference. And good luck, if I had a bag of luck, I really won't mind distributing it around IMU, need some for myself though :P

This is a real long blog so if you managed to read till this sentence without browsing away, I should really give u a big HUG. THANKS :D

Superheroes 3

Just a reminder, all characters are fictional and does not represent the real life SRC character, its just something I write for fun :P


Leong Wei Luen a.k.a Ironman

Superpower:
Iron Man possesses powered armor that gives him superhuman strength and durability, flight, and an array of weapons.















Chua Sin Wee a.k.a Wonder Woman

Superpower:
Wonder Woman was able to will a tremendous amount of brain energy into her muscles and limbs by Amazon training which endowed her with extraordinary strength and agility.












Soon Chun Kang a.k.a Spiderman

Superpower:
Spider sense, web-shooting, wall crawling, swinging around the city and spider strength













So I guess thats all.... For those who still think SRC is controlled by medic/pharmacy, or still unsure about the pro-faculty issue, I can only say that the Student Representative Council is called SRC, not MRC or PRC, so we are superheroes who are willing to fight for the students, and not for our personal benefits, have a nice day!! :)